Starting over...

Well, here I am, 22 years old, divorced, and living with my mom again. Getting wrapped up in a whirl wind romance at 18, dropping out of college and moving across the country with a man you've only known for 6 months is not recommended. I was 19 when I got pregnant with my son, and that is about when my at the time husband started changing from a caring understanding man, to a controlling, manipulative person. I tried making things last, even when I caught him telling another women he wanted to be with her instead while I was 8 months pregnant. I trusted him when he told me it was nothing, that he was sorry, that he loved me. In the end all it got me was a year and a half of verbal and emotional abuse, a load of debt, and him leaving me for another women with my son in his arms. I have spent the last year without my son dreaming about what he may be like now, 2 1/2 years old. Talking to lawyers trying to figure out the best plan to get him back. Having little money and little support is hard though. Mom has helped as much as she can, but she has her own problems. I found out a few weeks ago that my son and ex-husband are in Michigan now and that he has apparently married the women that "meant nothing" to him all those months ago. Now I get to picture this man and women raising my son, telling him that she is his only mother. Things have been hard. But I'm hoping they get better. Soon hopefully. I'm asking for help though, through donation, legal advice, or even just support. Anything that may help me get closer to my sunshine. To my beautiful baby boy.